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i'm a low life
Mood: blah I know...it's been awhile. I can't help it though. Justin and I don't have the internet still...It's been rough, with money and work and bills and blah blah blah...We hope to be getting the 'net soon though. If we don't, I think I'll go insane! Lately, my life seems to be in the shambles. I quit my job, Justin got laid off, but we have enough money to cover the bills and such until December. I don't have friends anymore...maybe that's because I'm married so therefore I just seem to ward off anyone I use to be able to call a friend. I have this problem with self pity though...I'm thinking it's REALLY, REALLY starting to get to me. I can't motivate myself to do anything... ...Actually, as I sit here, I have been starring off into the back ground of the computer screen as if it were going to jump out at me. I can't even contain my brain long enough to type up this simple entry... Moving on...my self image is another thing. I am desperately trying to lose weight. It's not working...simply for the fact that I am a H-O-G. I love to eat...eat...eat...CHOMP! I feel that in order to make myself feel better about my self image that I need to lose at least 100 pounds. If I lose the weight maybe I'll actually be able to become pregnant. Justin and I have been talking about babies a lot and we've decided that if I were to become pregnant that we definately wouldn't be upset. So, I guess that we're officially trying to become pregnant. Weight plays a big part in the whole menstrual cycle thing, so I've read. I'm not regular...and I haven't had a period since August. Before August [in this year], I had a period in March and July. So, I've had 3 periods this whole year so far...That isn't very good if you're wanting to have children. Anywhoo -- I guess I'm just rambling now. So, I'm going to be on my way... B'bye: EMILY |
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