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Goodbye forever.
Mood: tired but can't sleep Sound: the refrigerator is running, the computer humming and my tap, tap, tapping on the keyboard. Weather: it's cold. need I say more? Bah, I feel like crap and I'm bleeding like a stuffed hog. Gah, I can't wait until my 8 days are over, over, over! Why does it have to be this difficult to be a woman?! Lately I've come to the realization that no one has time for me anymore. I'm only good enough for a couple certain people when it's convenient. I can't talk to them about anything for more than like 2 minutes without them running away or ignoring me or whatever. It's like I don't exsist in their bubbles anymore. Well, I'm sorry to those of you whom cannot stand me anymore. I am so freaking sorry... Dinner was good tonight. I had last nights left over "squishy meat" aka turkey burgers and fresh steamed broccoli w/ real butter and cheese! Oh, it was so yummy and only 3 carbs! WOOT! I think tomorrow I'll make some more broccoli b/c it hit the spot tonight. Mmm mmm mmm good. I really should be in bed right now, but I just can't sleep. I was hoping that at least one person would be online so that I would have someone to talk to but to my surprise...Once again I am all alone. Well, even if there were someone online I'd surely just get ignored or I wouldn't be important enough. "...best friends forever? I don't know anymore. Why don't you tell me?" That's just the way I feel about everyone and everything...I just don't know anymore. So yeah...I updated emzi.tk today. It had seriously been a month shy of a year since I had last updated the thing. So, I just thought to myself, 'Heck, why not? It's not like I'm important enought for anything else. Why not drown in my own misery and dedicate a whole website to it? Sounds like fun...' Anywhoo -- if you would like you can check out the site. It's not much to look at, but I guess it works. I really think that I'm starting to enter into a depression extremely quickly. It's just that a lot of crap is going on in my life right now and I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not even sure I can count on those who have told me that "they were there for me no matter what." Well, this is no matter what and I don't have any friends. Or at least that's how it feels. I don't matter to you anymore so don't EVEN try and lie. You're so fake. Ok, I'm finished for the night. If you like you can try and cheer me up, but I promise you that it won't work. I'm outta here. Goodbye, hopefully forever. Luv me, Emzi |
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